Journal of Fenris

[XxFenris83xX]

After long consideration into what seemed like a lifetime. I been addressing inner issues as to why I have such intense hardcore experiences. And one of the problems I always had was finding a place to belong. But as I delve deeper that I been deemed an "outcast" by a lit of people. My rebellious inner wild self has come to say FUCK AUTHORITY. I will always question therefore authority of those claiming to be of a divine nature this includes clergy of every type. This isn't simple chaos. You can't take the wild. Of course the more civilized person would consider an individual a savage. So I fully embrace my Self and connect with others mutual respect. I'm generally good nature but trying to fix me in a box makes isn't gonna work. I'm unpredictable but doesn't mean careless or stupid.

I find my empowerment through nature. Being in tune with natural rhthyms of the earth. I'm very akin to earth based path.

I can't swallow the information about being all "one", love and light. And following someone's narrative other than my own is self defeating.

[XxFenris83xX]

May I have your attention, please?
May I have your attention, please?
Will the real Seeker please stand up?
I repeat, will the real Seeker please stand up?
We're gonna have a problem here

Y'all act like you never seen a white person before
Jaws all on the floor as I burst through the door
And started whoopin' your ass worse than before
I divorced from JoS and threw them like furniture(agh!)
It's the return of the "ah, wait, no way, you're kidding
He didn't just say what I think he did, did he?"
And Anonposter said, nothing, you idiots!
Anonposter dead, locked in my basement (ha ha!)
SS feminist women love this kind of crazism
"Chicka, chicka, chicka, Seeker, I'm sick of him
Look at him, walkin' around, accused being an attention slut
Flippin' the you-know-real Jews"
"Yeah, but he's so cute though"
Yeah, I probably got a couple of screws up in my head loose
But no worse than what's goin' on in your own bedroom
Sometimes I wanna get on YouTube TV and just let loose
But can't, but it's cool for Anonposter to hump a dead moose
"My ass is on your lips, my ass is on your lips
And if I'm lucky, you might just give it a little kiss
And that's the message that we deliver to little kids
And expect them not to know what a woman's clitoris is
Of course they're gonna know what intercourse is
By the time they know what is gay
They've got the LGBT don't they?
We ain't nothin' but mammals, well, some of us, cannibals
So dirty that they need to wash with soap
But if we can hump dead animals and plearn to cope
Then there's no reason that a man and another man can't elope
But if you feel like I feel, I got the antidote
Women, wave your pantyhose, sing the chorus, and it goes
I'm Seeker, yes, I'm the real Seeker
All you other Seekers are just imitating

[HPBlackMamba]

I look forward to reading more of your posts in the future.

[HPSZolaLuckyStar]

This is awesome! You have talent

[AnonPoster]

You all 3 are retarded

[XxFenris83xX]

This is awesome! You have talent

Refresh my memory here you are being accused of stealing 15,000 in donations. Can you tell me what really happened to you Zola in JoS? I remember speaking to you on there a few times

[HPBlackMamba]

Refresh my memory here you are being accused of stealing 15,000 in donations. Can you tell me what really happened to you Zola in JoS? I remember speaking to you on there a few times

Still flogging that dead horse I see... Zola Never stole anything. It's a smear from HoodedCobra... and HoodedCobra has a track record for smearing everyone that leaves JoS. Here is a short list of Former members (that I know of) who have been smeared.

Don Danko (Former Clergy)
Vovim Baghie(Former Clergy)
Teloc Vovim
Red Tail
Kai Purr
Scarlet Woman
Aldric


You may not know who these people were, but in their day they were more influential than Cobra on the Joy of Satan Website....

[XxFenris83xX]

Refresh my memory here you are being accused of stealing 15,000 in donations. Can you tell me what really happened to you Zola in JoS? I remember speaking to you on there a few times

Still flogging that dead horse I see... Zola Never stole anything. It's a smear from HoodedCobra... and HoodedCobra has a track record for smearing everyone that leaves JoS. Here is a short list of Former members (that I know of) who have been smeared.

Don Danko (Former Clergy)
Vovim Baghie(Former Clergy)
Teloc Vovim
Red Tail
Kai Purr
Scarlet Woman
Aldric


You may not know who these people were, but in their day they were more influential than Cobra on the Joy of Satan Website....

Yeah Cobra mentioned it to me in an email about Zola and Don. I'm not surprised about getting smeared. I been smeared too I went by make Trans Viking and beareroflightandtruth I spoke with him because I was ruthlessly attacked and he blamed me for getting attacked for no reason. This was a couple of weeks ago when it happened. But I was just wondering about the whole situation.

[HPBlackMamba]

Yeah Cobra mentioned it to me in an email about Zola and Don. I'm not surprised about getting smeared. I been smeared too I went by make Trans Viking and beareroflightandtruth I spoke with him because I was ruthlessly attacked and he blamed me for getting attacked for no reason. This was a couple of weeks ago when it happened. But I was just wondering about the whole situation.

I guess I should add you to the list then...

[XxFenris83xX]

What's important to remember. We need to live our lives.

It's became clear to me that the only reason for attacks on the internet and judgements are acts of a coward. Too afraid to do it offline.

Icalling myself a Satanist when it comes to Satan, it seems there is too much negativity and stigma and too much fighting involved on whose ego is bigger than the other. Think about it. The internet is the fuel for ego inflation. I have a life to live. I don't have time for petty attacks on the internet from people I haven't met. My philosophy is Satanic for sure.

My personal religion does involve myself and I. Growth happens. It's when we come to realize after spending time away and not giving a shit what other people say or think. It's worthless to try to fight with someone online. They have endless of resources to confirm whatever they already believed. It's deadly.

Time to wake up to the real world and defy authority. That authority that's over you is the internet.

I have seen so many replies that is really shallow and just silly. I dont bother with those kind of replies.

I'm not here to burst anyone's ego. I have better things to do.

As far as the philosophy that HPMamba has. It's a key to virtually almost to any way you want to put it. In this case he chooses to call it Satanism. It could have been called something else. In the end you are left with your own choices if one decides to worship any god, make sure it's in your own image so that way by proxy you are worshipping yourself. That's what I'm doing. I personally think it's healthy to sacrifice your ego every now in then rather than having your head up your own ass all the time. Just saying.