I WAS WRONG!

[Zaborg]

Please read my apology Zola.

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[HPSZolaLuckyStar]

sorry zaborg. You'll have to post it here I don't go to that place. Seems to me its just a way to once again post an ad for that place.

[Zaborg]

Hey guys,

It's Zaborg, some may also know me as Starseed. On T4S I also went under many usernames.

I just wanted to reach out and say sorry for my recent behavior as a troll. I know I made some really hurtful comments that caused harm to others, and for that, I'm truly sorry.

I want to set the record straight - It was me and not Hooded Cobra, who started all those rumors about Zola being Jewish and stealing money. Those rumors are completely false. I never intended for things to get so out of hand and I deeply regret that Zola was caught in the crossfire.

The truth is, I started the rumors because I wanted to attack the JoS and Cobra. I had some personal issues with them and wanted to take them down. However, I never meant for Zola to be affected by my actions. She was an innocent bystander who got caught up in my malicious plan.

I want to sincerely apologize to Zola for any harm that I may have caused her. I never intended for her to get banned and I am deeply sorry that she has had to face the consequences of my actions.

I must admit that I was quite surprised when she announced the creation of her own platform. This was especially true considering her recent ban from the Joy of Satan community. It caught me completely off guard.

Looking back, I realize now that my actions were not just hurtful, but also pointless. Trolling and spreading false information just leads to more negativity and division. It's not a cool or productive way to interact with others online or in real life. I am tired of slicing off heads just for another one to come out of the hydra.

I want to be clear that I don't support hate speech or harassment in any form. I feel terrible about the harm I caused and I'm committed to changing my ways.

I hope you can accept my apology and that I can make things right. I promise to be a positive and respectful member of this community from now on. I am done with trolling forever.

Also, I am sorry to Druan for my negativity and abusive language. I hope we can put this behind us and turn a new leaf.

[HPSZolaLuckyStar]

Pretty 'coincidental' timing. I have already had one false apology this week. Which was a malicious, mean spirited and hurtful act. You'll forgive me if I entertain a certain scepticism and have reservations this one is anymore legit.

It's highly suspect you initially posted simply a request to go to that other site. Essentially placing another ad.

And there was never anyone here calling themselves 'starseed'.

I worked with maxine and cobra. I have his contact e-mails. His REAL ones. I assure the readers, the one used to sign 'cobra' up here was not one of them. So, to be fair I notified cobra somebody was purporting to be him, here.

[Mystery]

Hi this is Merlyn83. I was banned from JoS and now I am unbanned from JoS able to return after Cobra's apology. I'm pretty confused.

I recently saw in other forums that someone has been pretending to be Cobra, I guess? To sabatoge him and you as well. They claimed that they were trying to infiltrate the clergy of JoS to destroy it because of the hatred of Jews? I don't know.

All I know is for me personally Zola I am sorry to you as well. I thought I did apologize already and it was sincere but you found me untrustworthy all because I shared my email with someone and no telling what else, I told you why i did, i needed assistance in writing and combating trolls which he was good at, even under my name he neber attacked youbor talked shit so i didn't know why that upsets you. . I never attacked you in these forums. Now I know Owen is a fucker I can't trust obviously I told him in private because I didn't want to upset you at the time. I been around a while in T4S over a year. I am tired of getting treated by admin like I'm replaceable. You admins take long time members for granted. That's exactly what happened.

I 'switched' sides because no one wants to constantly see the bickering back and forth between you and whoever the idiot is. I was pissed, you know what I was angry about. I let that go , it was stupid and unimportant for me to have reacted like that.

But I can't really blame you though, you are hurt, feel betrayed. But that's false. I never betrayed you. Not personally I didn't. I'm upset yeah because I see you constantly showing the victim mentality and you think everyone is Cobra and you made your decision about me on god knows what. You did the same thing to Mamba I am shocked. Because he was here as an admin. You keep banning him under radioactive. I'm not sure why you are banning him. He left in peace and returned not knowing what's in store in these forums.

I am not trying to be an asshole but having victim mentality is unhealthy and I really hope you find peace and healing you deserve.

Good luck. Hopefully you can join us at Toxic Waste Project

[HPSZolaLuckyStar]

SMH. I am not sure where to even begin with this one.



You shared your account here with the bastard attacking and attacking me for no good reason. “whoever the idiot is” you say. That would be reddawn. You KNOW who he is. He was 'helping' you. Are you crazy?

You fail to comprehend why learning of this would 'upset' me yet, you knew enough to keep it from me. You knew damned well why. It's very deceitful behaviour.

While at the same time you kept trying to engage me in private, personal conversations, trying to get inside my head. Which he would then be able to access. So yes. That's a MAJOR problem, a HUGE betrayal.

Whose side were you really on?



'cobra' never apologized here to me. That was mamba trolling. He did it to hurt me. It was a malicious and hateful act.

I did work with maxine and cobra. I have his REAL contact e-mails. The one 'cobra' used to sign up here was NOT one of them. So I wrote cobra a note to let him know he was being impersonated here. He would therefore, have seen what you said and he decided to give you another chance, is most likely what happened.



Owen is not a 'fucker'. He was a true friend and a partner who worked closely with me. He was trusted and was true blue, never betrayed my trust. Unlike yourself. He was loyal. So yes, he told me. It's my forum, I'm the global admin. Something like that is a security issue. I have a need to know. That doesn't make him a dirty 'fucker'.

You? You switch sides like a weathercock. You have been 'leaving' and 'returning' over and over and over since you joined here. I have never pandered to your weakness, unlike another. And you bought it, and now you're over there.



You're labelling me with 'victim mentality'? Are you fucking kidding?!? That filth (and friends) has been harassing me for YEARS. Me standing up for myself you see as 'bickering'? You are dismissing and minimizing something that is real and genuinely hurtful and mislabelling it as something trivial, which is an insult, and a slap in the face.

Your 'solution' you suggested to me over and over was to roll over and lie down and take it! If someone is punching you repeatedly in the face, you don't 'ignore' it and just walk away. Not when they are home invaders doing this. You have to FIGHT.

I wonder how well you'll do when a filthy, nasty lying bastard like him comes after YOU?



And you HAVE betrayed me. AGAIN. Coming in here to advertise.

He was here as an admin. I banned him for good reason. You don't know.

I don't do things arbitrarily, despite the slander. All I ever wanted was to make a nice place for people.

That is impossible – with constant harassment and business sabotage, constant trying to bring the atmosphere down to the lowest common denominator possible - without some moderation. Having a code of civil conduct does not a gulag make.



You complain you didn't like to see 'the bickering'. You are minimizing how bad it really was. It was 'bickering' on steroids in here before, and well you should know it, having been here for so long. It was fucking toxic. Your buddy and his friends turned this forum into a shithole. I am doing my best to clean it up now, make the forum a kindlier, nicer place for all to be in. And you turn your back on me and join them.


You come here making that disgusting, condescending judgement.....'having victim mentality is unhealthy'......the intimation being I am mentally unbalanced and you're not trying to be an asshole? Are you kidding? SMH

You never attacked me in these forums? You think telling me to go fuck myself doesn't count?

Well, Fuck YOU.



I ask people to be CIVIL. I ask them not to sabotage this place. I am not a free speech 'gulag'.



It's like goldilocks and the three bears.

JoS is too cold. Toxicdumpsterfire is too hot.

But the T4S is just right.

Good luck to you in the dump. I will never join you there.

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[Mystery]

Oh my god. RED DAWN ISNT COBRA FOR THE MILLIONTH TIME!!!! I Know RED DAWN personally !!!!! I would never share my account with Cobra. Red Dawn left because he got sick and tired of you crying victim and the bickering back and forth between you and the troll that you constantly keep feeding. Maybe you can think clearly if you stop drinking alcohol. And be emotionally stable.


I NEVER FUCKING BETRAYED YOU. You are so damn delusional I'm flabbergasted. YOU DISRESPECTED ME, THATS FUCKIN REAL BETRAYAL. I tried so many times to assist you and you ignored me so many fucking times. You are a lost cause.


So now I understand the fuckin issue you here you want fucking loyalty! You are no better than Cobra was in the past. I was unbanned and several other members were unbanned that was uncalled for.


Get your own head out of your ass! You are scared to go to toxic waste because there's free speech there and you would be called out. I had a few members tell me they are upset with your actions YOU NEED TO Take RESPONSIBILITY FOR, you have accused so many people being Cobra or working for Cobra.

Go ahead and defend that shithead Owen he's tattle tell for sure sharing private stuff with you that's a bunch of bullshit and untrustworthy. You are a lying sack of shit for accusations against me and crying like a bitch because I chose to share my account...YOU ARE TRYING TO SHUT ME UP AND CONTROL WHAT I DO....... THATS A HUGE RED FLAG.

Go fuck yourself bitch. I'm done wasting my time here. I know now you are a basket case and lost cause. I will not be apologizing to you and leaving here. If you want to talk you know which forums I'm at.

[HPSZolaLuckyStar]

Now I'm a lush and emotionally unstable? You just keep heaping on the insults. I guess acting like you're the offended party somehow makes your behaviour justifiable.

You're being obtuse. I don't know if its deliberate. Seems you're the one 'mentally and emotionally unstable' with their 'head up their ass', sorry to say. I'm not trying to 'control' you. I'm asking for a modicum of decency. Having some honor. Being a decent person instead of being manipulative and deceitful.


I spent the last two years in a toxic waste, thanks. Being punched repeatedly in the face. I'm not 'scared'.
It's just, it's a total waste of my time. Been there done that. I don't have to take that shit anymore.


You're 'calling me out' now here, aren't you? Funny, I didn't 'censor' you, did I? Trying to 'shut you up'? How so? Stop yipping about there is no 'free speech' here. That's bullshit. You've been listening to poison dripping in your ears. And you eat it up with a spoon.



Owen is a 'tattle tail sharing private stuff'? No, he did the right thing. That was a security issue.

But YOU, sharing your personal account here with reddawn, of ALL people, deceiving me if I was speaking to you it was to you alone....while at the same time trying to engage me in private, personal conversation, trying to get inside my head. Or was that him? IN either case, he would then be able to crawl inside my head. Isn't THAT 'sharing private stuff'? Isn't that an attempted set up?!? You deceitful hypocrite! I fucking hate people lying to me! And you want to talk red flags? Puhleeeze.
I guess it turns out to be a good thing I 'ignored' you. It was probably your 'buddy' doing the talking. hey?

But in all seriousness, I listened, and I made my own choices. I am not obligated to act on your advice and the fact I don't isn't 'ignoring' or 'discounting' you. Why should you feel somehow dissed because I didn't act as you wished? Isn't that YOU trying to control ME?


Yes yes, I know. Reddawn isn't Cobra. OMG! Zola made a mistake! Holy shit! I wonder how you would like to be blindfolded and then punched repeatedly by who knows how many people in your own house? I did the best I could to try to reason out who and how many. One of the Daemons actually just let me know a few days ago reddawn isn't cobra, but thanks for letting me know. NOW, six months or so down the road. You knew then, but said NOTHING.

He left because he knew he was going to be held accountable from now on. He was banned for good reason. Don't try to twist it, sister girla.



I would have appreciated some loyalty, yes. Not the blind unquestioning kind! But that of a decent person with morals! Like Owen! He was the most decent of you ALL! Stop denigrating him! If you know you're in the wrong and can't win, resort to name calling, eh?

I never talked down to you or treated you badly. I never tried to manipulate you. Like you're being manipulated now. You're being a tool, acting a fool and a useful idiot, so unaware, so blind. I'm sorry about that.



Those members who are 'upset' crying to you zola baaaaddd.......can come here and talk to me for themselves, CIVILLY, if they have an issue. And maybe, while they're at it, they can 'take responsibility' for hounding and harassing ME. For all the years of screaming 'kike' at ME. All the years of accusations of me 'stealing' when I never saw a fucking dime! All the libel, slander, and unrelenting emotional, verbal and mental abuse! HOW ABOUT THAT, BITCH?

While you're lecturing ME about 'taking responsibility'?!?

It's so fucking hypocritical!!! ALL OF YOU who took part in this abuse, who are now whining at the dump like coy dogs about ME.....are hypocrites who need to take responsibility for the damage and harm you do to other people! You fucking tools!

I'm not lying about anything. I'm not a 'basket case'. But you sure sound like one right now!

You'll be at the dump till some shithead like your 'personal friend' decides to go after YOU. We'll see how you deal with that without any codes of civil conduct, where its their 'right' to stalk and harass you. To punch you repeatedly in the face in a place where there is zero accountability for criminal behaviour.



Enjoy.



Like I said, I will NEVER go there. Been there done that.



I want the T4S to be healthy and supportive, and clean. For ALL. And that includes me.

Having codes of decency in conduct does not a gulag make. That is a tired canard.

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[Celeste AikoGal]

I'm not here to defend Zola since she didn't ask and it would be rude; However, if you don't like this forum, just leave? What is your problem? Who asked you to remain here? You returned and left so many times. Toxic Waste is not that different from complaining all the time on Reddit. It is in fact a Toxic Waste of time. If you chose "one side", just leave and go there. Decide which part to be in, no one is forcing you. Just go on JoS and no one cares. Is this that hard? I followed all the conversations: I saw you wrote on toxic waste how bad Zola is and then here being normal for a bit. This is a free speech forum, what do you complain for? I can even say I disagree with some Zola's ideas on her sermons without being banned like on JoS. You need to pick up a side and just go your own way. You can't always change ideas. You apologized to Zola and then again you insulted her more than ever. Just leave this place at this point and be in your own spaces. This is not an hotel - at a certain moment, people will start questioning what do you want from this place. Look, I follow my own beliefs and may not follow everything precisely Zola says, comparing to JoS that bans or insults you if you don't. For me my Satanism / Demonolatry path is different than only self-deification. And this doesn't change that we are all Satanists, with different views unless some freedom / human right gets violated. So do as you want, no one is forcing you to stay here. This is not a cult / sect. This is a safe space for everyone who wants to learn more and share their experiences / sermons about Satanism and occultism, spirituality.

[Mystery]

I have the freedom to do as I please I am only shutted up because Zola is the admin. I joined Toxic Waste because there is no censorship and minimal moderation and won't get banned.

I only came back because I want to set the record straight and the truth. Now I Said my piece. I am leaving for good. I really don't care anymore after all this bs