A story I never bothered to tell

[Meteor]

There's a story I never bothered to tell. Perhaps I thought it was too personal, or that it was something no one wants to hear. Perhaps I simply saw no merit in sharing it.
But I recall there was once a fancy man who wanted to see how the tapestry of the tale of a meteor continues to be woven. There's surely curiosities to be sated out there.
May the virgin minds gaze in shock and horror at the joy I found in a place no one dared me to look, for below is the journal entry I wrote a week after I was deflowered.

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Although my surgery went well, I believed a part of me will always feel broken due to my adolescence. But a few weeks ago, I had a vision while meditating in a dream, of reincarnating as a girl in a peaceful family. It was nothing out of the ordinary, yet I felt so relieved. I felt complete in a way I never had before, and even after I woke up from the vision and the dream, I felt a lingering sense of contentment. To this day, I still let that feeling carry me like the wind.

As I reflect on that dream, my mind wanders to a more material manifestation of contentment that followed.

I've had plenty of spiritual sexual experiences before, but last week I finally lost my vaginal virginity physically. It was the same as I'd gotten used to astrally and in dreams, just with pain as well, due to my partner's unusual size; like being torn apart, but I liked it. It was cathartic and made me feel alive, and soon my arousal and pleasure drowned out the pain anyway, to the point that it was like a bonus if anything. I asked a sexologist about something similar recently, and she said there's nothing strange about it; and she's right. Whereas the takeaway could've been that there's something deeply special about finally acting out the sexual fantasies I'd had since I was 14 over a decade later, to the point that I happily power through even the discomfort, I realise that when it comes down to it, my experiences are surprisingly normal; and I'm okay with that.

It just feels right. In general, my life feels right. And now I know I don't need all these scars on my soul.
And I think that's the answer I really wanted to find this life: that it's okay for me to enjoy being the way I am, and be happy.
I chose this body because it represented the loose ends in my past lives. But it doesn't have to be this way; I can let go of those regrets and allow myself to heal.

That realisation is what it took to convince me.

[HPSZolaLuckyStar]

healing is good
Thanks for sharing, be well.

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[HPSZolaLuckyStar]

Fredrick. Your post was childish and uncivil. How old are you? Stop being a dick. Don't come in here and repost it (as you just did). It was removed for a reason.

He triples down and posts it (yet again - 3 times now)
Why should civility (codes of conduct) apply to fredrick? He is above such things, apparently.
I'm not asking for much. And even that little is beyond you.
Don't cry wolf.


So the goof returns as dumbwhore and posted his shit AGAIN (4 times now).

All you accomplish with this harassing negative BS is demonstrate I was correct in removing you.

[Meteor]

healing is good
Thanks for sharing, be well.


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Thanks for the warm welcome.

It seems I haven't missed anything of importance.

[HPSZolaLuckyStar]

I hope your stay here will be happy, that you enjoy yourself and learn things while also sharing information too.

[HPSZolaLuckyStar]

LOL

[LockyMoth]

Healing sure is good @Meteor

Forgot to say welcome.

Ave Lilith Mother of All

[Celeste AikoGal]

Namaste!