I am an Asian gentile who have always wondered about the truth of things, of the world, of human origin, the true religion, etc. - ever since I was a little girl. I was a little girl with big questions that neither of my Buddhist parents were able to answer honestly.
Fast forward, I got into several different religions. I dabbled here and there such as Catholicism, Christianity, Islam, Sufism, and Kabbalah. My entire life was about truth. None of these religions felt good or right. Then, fast forward to those nights I'd stay up late (as is normal for me) doing deep research, I stumbled across JoS website.
The information contained there, I felt it was the truth, as far as Satan and the Gods on his side. Of course, I joined the forum. I took me a few months of reading their contents and the forum before I decided to dedicate in December of 2020 during the solar eclipse transit, around midnight.
Before I dedicated, I was already doing meditations and cleansing. What I never did, though(and still haven't done), is the F-RTR. Why? Something told me not to (at least, not yet). I was seeing on the forum, posts about many people's negative experiences after they do it. Yes, some people don't experience anything negative. Some people allege they feel good afterwards. Some don't feel a thing. However, there was a growing trend of those who felt negative experience such as low energy. I think the low energy is the most common "side effect".
So. Based on that, I never got into it. There's another reason that crossed my mind that discouraged me from doing the rtr. That is, why are we using Hebrew letters? Why not Sanskrit or Runes? These are gentile letters. Shouldn't we be using our own "weapons" to destroy their occult power and to delay their pending agendas? It never sat right with me to use their Hebrew letters. It just doesn't make any Satanic sense!
That is all regarding the RTR.
Now to critique my experience at the forum.
Generally, I have never ran into issues or misunderstandings from anybody there. However, I have noticed that they do seem to quickly label anyone who disagrees with them (about anything) as a Jew. I think/feel/believe that people can disagree with one another without going to extremes and acting in obscene, Jerry Springer-like way. I also noticed the censorship there. It's no different to the tech censorship on social media platforms.
I have been lurking around here and so far, it feels much more welcoming and at home here than there. I still visit their forum, though, and will likely continue to.
I'm the kind of person who keeps an open mind. The principles stated here (i.e. freedom, truth, etc) feels just right. Nothing inside me tells me something is off - yet. Again, I keep my mind open.
It's been a long journey for me from birth to now. I am a Satanist at heart. It took me awhile, but I'm here. It's almost as if something/someone has been guiding me, so to say.
That's all for now. I hope to learn and also eventually contribute. And personally, I'll be keeping a far distance from the drama between certain members here
Thank you
