HPBlackMamba's Meditation and Self Worship Journal

[HPBlackMamba]

2021/08/16

A big part of meditation for me is just about being quiet and enjoying the moment. Is it important to meditate every day? At the beginning of my path, I thought it was. After being on this journey for seven years, I would say that it isn't (even though I still meditate daily). However, worshiping yourself every day is essential and should be a priority.

I saw a golden light and just enjoyed it for a while. I felt heat on my lips and emanating from my heart chakra. I found myself drinking from a cool clear stream, and the water was refreshing. I scooped up some water in a thermos and sat down on a nearby bench. I kept drinking and enjoying the refreshing, life-giving water.

I felt so good, suddenly I became aware that my entire body is glowing with white light. This went on for a while. Then I felt like a stream of water was flowing through me.

I breathed in powerful white energy, and my body glowed even brighter. I affirmed, "I believe in myself". I breathed in energy again, and affirmed, "I worship myself". I breathed in energy for the third time, and affirmed, "I have faith in myself".

After a while I felt like my body was a bucket filled with water, and that the water was sloshing around inside. I felt like a was being tossed about left and right. It was an uncomfortable feeling. Suddenly the water became calm and still, and I felt peaceful.

[HPBlackMamba]

2021/08/18

Most of the experiences that I have been documenting have centered around meditation. However, I feel like that growth would not have been possible without self-worship. I should write about self-worship more, as this is of higher importance and I spend more time worshipping myself than meditating.

In today's mediation, I experienced a golden light, coming out of my hands and feet. My aura was shining with a bright golden light, I felt whole. There have been some insecurities and obstacles that I have been struggling with within my private life. An explosion of light came from deep inside my core and sent a ripple into the astral realm. It was almost like a nuclear explosion that dissolved everything in its path. I knew that everything was going to be OK.

I have peace of mind now because I attained a spiritual victory of sorts. I know what the future holds for me, and it is positive.

[HPBlackMamba]

2021/08/19
My self-worship journey has been extremely powerful, and today was a reminder of that. While listening to the music and worshiping myself in the mirror, I felt the life-essential Vao flowing through me. What an amazing feeling. I don't know how I ever managed before this! Meditation today was also extremely powerful. The more I worship myself, the higher the power level of my meditations climb.

[HPBlackMamba]

Self worship has helped me to level up in my spiritual journey!

[HPBlackMamba]

2021/08/20

Meditation and self-worship were so refreshing today. Is there an element of self-worship in meditation? I think that there is, but I know that self-worship is more than just meditation on its own.

When we meditate, we are exploring our minds and there are many benefits to this. For example, meditation reduces stress. When we are stressed out, harmful chemicals called cytokines are released by our bodies.

Depression disrupted sleep, anxiety and clouded judgment are just some examples of the many ways that stress can affect our lives. Meditation promotes stress relief, and this can have many positive outcomes within our lives.

Anxiety and stress are linked together, and when you reduce the level of stress in your life, then anxiety levels will also fall. Aside from this, I have found that meditation has also improved my psychological and emotional well-being. Meditation leads to higher self-worth which can create a more positive outlook on life.

In my own life, I have seen a reduction in negative thoughts and improved mood. My self-awareness has also increased. Meditation has helped me to understand myself better and motivated me to grow into my best self. Self-defeating thoughts and behaviors have surfaced through self-reflection, and I was able to deal with them and heal.

I have also found that meditation boosted my confidence in my ability to accomplish things and overcome challenges. One of the major benefits that meditation has had for me, was a lengthening of my attention span.

There are countless other benefits to meditation too. What I am trying to say is that meditation is a positive life choice that can improve our quality of life. By improving our quality of life, we are engaging in the act of self-worship. This is part of living the true philosophy of Satan.

However, is meditation by itself sufficient? I highly doubt it! We should worship ourselves in every aspect of our lives, and engaging in ritualistic self-worship is essential too.

[HPBlackMamba]

2021/08/21
I had an amazing self-worship session today, life is much better when you have Vao. Your level of Vao determines every positive experience in your life. This is because people with Vao exist on a higher spiritual vibration which is more positive.

When you have Vao, it becomes easier to look at situations positively and to appreciate good times. It also increases your ability to overcome obstacles and adversity. When people start with a self-worship program, they often feel guilty in the beginning. The feeling is similar to a teenager that has discovered masturbation for the first time and is scared of being outed or caught.

The feelings of shame and guilt stem from deep subconscious programming. Human beings have been conditioned into a slave mentality for thousands of years. From a young age, we are taught that anything positive and natural is sinful and wicked. We are programmed to hate ourselves and everything that is beneficial for our well-being.

When your Vao is high, your self-esteem improves and it becomes easier to be comfortable with yourself. Everyone wants to be happy in life, and high self-esteem will give you the confidence to live life on your terms.

Self-worship reminds us that we all have our own unique purpose and that we should follow our goals. Because Vao empowers us, it enables us to chase down our visions and dreams. This is why Satanists can get the most out of life.

[AnonPoster]

Self worship has helped me to level up in my spiritual journey!

[HPBlackMamba]

2021/08/22


Today's meditation and self-worship session were extremely powerful. Self Worth is a product and one of the many benefits of self-worship. When you have a positive self-image, you can accept disagreements quite easily.

We all have differing opinions about many things in life. Most people base important decisions on their own bias and perspective. When you have healthy self-esteem, you are secure within yourself. You are no longer threatened by another person's opinion or viewpoint.

People who have Vao are confident within themselves. What is Vao? Vao is spiritual power!

[AnonPoster]

I have been lurking on this forum for a while now. Thank you for sharing this info, it inspired me to get my act together and start meditating.

[HPBlackMamba]

2021/08/23
I was speaking to my friend Hesperus, you may remember him from the old forums. Like Zola he was also a member of the JoS. We talked for a long time about meditation, and our spiritual journey's in past years.

He told me that the meditations on the JoS hindered his spiritual growth more than anything. He followed their meditations for over two years and although he did make some progress, it mostly stunted his spiritual growth. This made me think back to what I was saying at an earlier time about listening to your soul.

Meditation today was smooth as usual. After today's session, I reflected on what I have learned on this 7-year meditation journey (I started in 2014 and have never skipped a day since then). Some people find it hard to meditate, to some people, it feels like a chore. I have never had this problem personally.

Meditation for me was always enjoyable, and wholesome. I think that this has to do with the fact that I was initiated with the right approach from the beginning. The worst thing that one can do is to read hundreds of meditation books or look for guides on websites. In my opinion, if you do this, then you are missing the point.

Satanic power meditation is about LISTENING to your soul. It's about becoming quiet and finding your inner compass. People often ask me what meditations they should do and I tell them, the less, the better.

I've been asked about visualization techniques, blue light meditation, energy breathing, an aura of protection, etc. The truth is you shouldn't be doing any of these. Stop trying to shape and make the experience, stop trying to overcomplicate things.

Stop trying so hard to see through your third eye, or to astral project. Meditation is about EXPERIENCING things, and not about shaping the experience yourself.
When you work so hard at visualizing white light or doing whatever, you are using the wrong part of your brain.

Sit or lie down, become quiet and just open yourself up, become aware. That is all you need. Why do you think that yoga and meditation go hand in hand? It's about getting people to relax, and to let go. Just relax and start LISTENING, and you will make more progress in one day than you did in ten years from reading thousands of books. Your soul knows what you need, so when are you going to start listening to it?

Self-worship today was better than ever before. I can see tangible results in my life, and I feel amazing.

You can learn more in one week by listening to your own soul, than you can in two years by following the JoS meditations or reading thousands of meditation books.