HPBlackMamba's Meditation and Self Worship Journal

[HPBlackMamba]

It is never a bald one.
Next time they might kill you, you would be better off knowing If and why.

I guess, the joke went over your head.
Do you even know who Matt Patt from film theory is?

No. I don't watch many movies. Most Movies annoy me. Few are worth watching.
I didn't understood the Joke at all

Matt Patt is a YouTuber that reviews films, food and games. He always ends his videos with a really funny catchphrase. "But hey, that's just a theory..."

[Snakeway]

I guess, the joke went over your head.
Do you even know who Matt Patt from film theory is?

No. I don't watch many movies. Most Movies annoy me. Few are worth watching.
I didn't understood the Joke at all

Matt Patt is a YouTuber that reviews films, food and games. He always ends his videos with a really funny catchphrase. "But hey, that's just a theory..."

Ok now I see what you did there. My bad then

[HPBlackMamba]

No. I don't watch many movies. Most Movies annoy me. Few are worth watching.
I didn't understood the Joke at all

Matt Patt is a YouTuber that reviews films, food and games. He always ends his videos with a really funny catchphrase. "But hey, that's just a theory..."

Ok now I see what you did there. My bad then

Lol!

[HPBlackMamba]

One last one just for fun

[HPBlackMamba]

This month is the anniversary of the month in which I became a Satanist. To celebrate I want to reflect on my spiritual journey in regards to astral projection. Astral projection was one of the things that have always been of interest to me.

Since a young age, the spiritual world has always been something that I was curious about. If a spiritual realm existed, then I wanted to explore it. Sadly, Christianity didn’t offer me any guidance or answers on the subject.

The first time Astral projection was mentioned to me was when I was about twelve years old. I was at Sunday school and the youth pastor told us that kids were playing this game called “Astral Projection”.

When we asked him what astral projection was he made the following statement: “Astral projection is when you leave your body to explore the spiritual world. Unfortunately, they don’t always make their way back. Astral projection is dangerous and you should promise God that you will never do it.”

Since that day I put astral projection out of my mind and never thought about it again. However, when I was 19 years old my interest in Astral projection was awakened for the first time. In the years prior I had been having many psychic experiences which I couldn’t explain as a Christian. I went through a kind of psychic awakening, and turned to Christianity and God for answers but always found none.

Out of frustration, I decided to seek out God myself. I thought that if I could astral project and leave my body, that I could meet God personally and finally get some guidance on pressing matters. I knew that it was possible to leave my body because I did it once before by accident.

A few years earlier, when I was about 17 years old, I woke up one morning and rolled out of my body by accident. I got such a fright that I immediately snapped back into my body. That was one of many psychic experiences that I had at the time.

Anyway, at 19 I decided that I was going to learn how to do an astral projection, no matter what. That is how my astral projection journey began. Every morning before work and every night when I went to bed, I decided that I would practice and try to astrally project.

I went on for about a month, with no results. I was looking at articles on the internet for advice and tips and tried everything that I could. If I found a book or an article on astral projection, then I read it.

Being able to leave my body was important to me, so I decided that I needed to dedicate more time to my astral projection goal. So I left my job at the factory and worked as a waiter instead. The new Job provided less pay, but the hours and shifts were more flexible.

This allowed me to devote entire days to leaving my body. And so I kept practicing and trying. I didn’t know about meditation back then or self-worship. If I had, my journey would probably have been easier.

One night something happened. I rolled over and fell off of my bed, but instead of hitting the floor, I went right through it. Slowly I floated back up, and just hovered there for a while outside of my body. I started moving somewhere against my will and I got scared and snapped back into my body.

I kept on trying to astrally project until I was 21 after that and then before finally abandoning the idea. Although I didn’t have much success in astral projection during this time, I did see an increase in psychic awareness and paranormal experiences.

This was especially true during the years 2010- 2012. Back then I didn’t know why, but now I know it’s because I was opening myself up spiritually. Then for a while, everything fell quiet and I totally forgot about astral projection.

However, when I started on my path into Satanism and the occult in 2014 everything changed. I started a meditation program for the first time in my life and discovered spirituality. Meditation was one of the missing keys to unlocking my spiritual potential.

A month into my Spiritual Satanic journey, the desire for the astral project was rekindled. I decided to give it another try through meditation. I have been meditating every day since then for the past 7 years.

Astral projection didn’t come easy, it took me a long time to accomplish my goal and I had many interesting experiences on the way. For example, when I met my wife, we were in a long-distance relationship. We both wanted to astral project and meet each other in the astral realm.

For a long time, we were both working towards this goal. Today I can astral project at will, and go where I want to. I don’t even need to be in a meditative state or a trance. I can leave my body while being fully conscious with ease.

Self-worship was a big part of the breakthrough and my eventual success. However, when I started astral projecting I soon found out that it was nothing like how I expected it to be. One of the biggest misconceptions is that I would experience the astral realm in the same way that I experience reality in the physical world. In truth, it’s nothing like that.

When I experience something in the astral, I can experience it with my astral body, but this is nothing like experiencing it with a physical body. This is probably why having a physical body is such an advantage over not having one. It’s very much a non-physical thing and can be mistaken for a thing of the mind.

Things in the astral were also not how I expected them to be. You can indeed experience the world in the astral realm in the same way that physical reality is experienced. However, things are different somehow. The world appears to you differently.

For example, you may decide to go and visit your friend in their kitchen and find that their kitchen looks very different from what it looked like in real life. It may even be unrecognizable. In the astral realm, objects quite often act like symbols.

This is because we can see people’s thoughts as objects and manifestations in higher dimensions. You may find that your friend was thinking about a vacation at the beach, and not understand why their kitchen is between the dunes.

This doesn’t mean that you projected to the wrong place though, it just means that you saw your friend's thoughts as they were manifesting in the kitchen.

Another thing that I found quite odd was that people in the physical world were not even aware of me, but their higher self was. Physically they wouldn’t know that I was there, but I could interact with their higher self and even have conversations.

One thing that was different from my expectations, was the idea that astral projection will show me what the afterlife was like. I can’t even begin to say how many astral projection blogs I read where people stated that astral projection eliminated the fear of death and gave revelations of the afterlife.

You can’t really learn much about the afterlife from astral projection as that area is blocked off and off-limits for people who are still attached to their bodies. I think that people were just writing that to get attention or something. Or maybe I still have a lot to learn about the astral realms.

People also talk about feeling vibrations when you are about to leave your body for the first time. I never felt any of this. When I project, I am instantly out of my body, quicker than you can snap your fingers. Were they lying about this too? I honestly don’t know.

What about the rope technique? Or the ladder technique? None of this bullshit ever worked for me and was a complete waste of time. The only thing that worked was self-worship, meditation, and opening my third eye. I just become aware of the experience and then I am off on my astral travels.

[HPBlackMamba]

A spiritual journey without God or Gods. It is indeed possible, although it is a road less traveled.
When I started my spiritual journey as a Satanist, my main focus was on achieving a spiritual awakening through meditation. Since then I learned that self-worship is also important.

I believed in the Pagan Gods of old when I was new in the path. My focus was mainly on raising my spiritual awareness so that I could make contact with them. I was hoping that they would guide me to the answers I need regarding the existential questions that we all have in life, but also show me how to cultivate an immortal soul.

What I didn’t realize is just how much this set me back and hampered my progress. I was heading down a path of submission instead of empowerment and spiritual freedom. I thought that I was different from Christians and Muslims because I was worshipping the elder Gods (and therefore the true Gods) of humanity.

However, research into ancient religions and sun worship later showed that I was ignorant and didn’t know what I was getting myself into. Don’t get me wrong, if you are a pagan and worship these gods, then probably nothing bad will happen to you.

Like I mentioned before, ever since I started my spiritual journey I was meditating consistently every day, and later I started adding self-worship to that after I was illuminated. At some point I reached a breaking point, I transcended my pagan beliefs with spiritual enlightenment.

Now I am still on a spiritual journey, however, I am not pursuing the favor of “the Gods”. This is a spiritual journey with me at the center, I am the God, the idol, the one that is venerated. It’s a spiritual journey of true empowerment.

Ever since I started doing this, ever since I started following this truly Satanic path, I saw real results and breakthroughs in my life. I started experiencing untapped spiritual power. I can achieve things that I never thought were possible.

To worship yourself is to drink from the chalice of illumination. This is and has always been the key to true spiritual power, enlightenment, immortality, prosperity, and happiness. I am still meditating every day and worshipping myself. I am walking a spiritual journey without God or Gods.

I encourage everyone to drink from this chalice until they have their fill. Drink from this chalice until you are drunk, and then drink some more.

[HPBlackMamba]

I have been having a strange but positive experience today. It's like reality was switching on and off. Almost like someone flipping a light switch really fast. Then I realized that reality wasn't switching on and off. I was in two places at once. I was astral projecting without even knowing it while my body was still awake, and then becoming aware of the fact that I was astral projecting. I was zipping back and forth at light speed to who knows where, like someone was calling me out of my body and whispering in my ear.

[HPBlackMamba]

I was astral projecting and I saw a small box. The box was placed on the floor, and was really small. I looked down at the box, I felt like a giant in comparison.

suddenly the sides of the box collapsed on the floor revealing a Jack in the box. It was really tiny, waving its small arms at me and cursing me.

I brought down my giant foot and stepped on the little angry figure. When I squashed it under my foot, there was a splurt of thick red blood. This startled me, and I realized it was dead.

I lifted my foot, and there lay the Jester, flat as a pancake. Then a loud voice thundered around me: "The #### has cursed you, but they have failed".

Who was this mysterious voice in the Astral? Was it Satan? I don't know. Suddenly I snapped back to my body.

[HPBlackMamba]

Through years of power meditation, I have become aware of my telepathic voice. This awareness became especially strong during 2019 and I have been building on that ever since. Last night I was doing some self worship when suddenly I had an idea. What if I combined my telepathic ability with the act of self worship?

What a powerful feeling! I started by humming the major key with my telepathic voice and something strange happened. I felt crystal clear vibrations in the Astral. The feeling of these vibrations were so clear and strong. They felt extremely sharp but in a pleasant way.

Then I started singing with my telepathic voice, and the sound was so beautiful. I felt like a whale singing at the bottom of the ocean deep. My telepathic voice echoed, It felt like it reached for miles. It was so real, and so beautiful. This was an extremely powerful experience.

[HPBlackMamba]

I have been doing the telepathic self worship thing, and it really is an amazing and pleasant experience!
I can get addicted to the feeling, it's so wholesome! The words also come so naturally.