some questions about 'demonic'attacks
Posted: Tue Apr 04, 2023 4:17 am
I left christianity in 2018,and I was dabbling in Vajrayana buddhism for a while (like 3 years)but when I found out what Nirvana really meant,I was stuck in a deep depression,but I didn't want to leave just then because I had read Tibetan Delog stories about the afterlife.
I prayed to Matsendranath a great Satanic Shaivite hindu yogi to guide me,the Tibetans claimed him as a foudner of Vajrayana and I thought it would be okay.
with his blessings I believe I found a host of refutations of buddhist epistemology and metaphysics from various hindu (Nyaya-mimaksaka,Vedantic and Shaivite)sources,ironically the go to brahma sutra commentary in hinduism refuting buddhism from Shankara who I later found out was a subversive,was the least convincing.
So I stayed in hinduism for 2 years,but on the way I would get dreams from some entities impersonating Kali,and my Ishta devata Lalitha Tripura Sundari.
the former would give me bad dreams,and even put me in the hospital when I got drunk and praised her,I blacked out and I didn't know what happened until I woke up in the emergency room.
the entity impersonating Lalithaa would give me dreams that Yehova(God of mischief,iniquity as I later would fidn out this word meant)was part of her and I shouldn't be so anti-Abrahamic.
Then one day in the evening,I was sleep and angels attacked me and Said I was worshipping 'satan',and I called out to Jesus to help me and submitted to him to make the dream stop-I thought I was gonna die.
I then found a Guru named Nithyananda and followed him for a while.
Then I became more mentally ill from his practices so I thought,'maybe the christians are right this stuff is evil'So I became a orthodox christian that night,and that very night I would have entities telling em to kill myself in my sleep,and I saw a entity in sleep paralysis and I called on Yehova to help me.
Attacks by entites would happen for the next year and a half,and I would of course only be helped when I called on Yehova and Jewsus.
This only increased my faith,that 'paganism'was evil and the christians were right.
Then I came upon a unfortunate website,which I won't name here that hosts a bunch of stories of Ex-satanists and Ex-voodoo,ex-Umbainda,ex-hindus,ex-muslims and Ex-rosicrucians and they had the exact same experiences as I did,and the entities they were worshipping trying to kill them and them coming to Yehovah(God of iniquity).
That website had stories of people goinjg to hell for the wrong haircut,or for liking a bikini clad woman's photo on facebook and I became really paranoid,fearful and scrupulous.So I wanted out,but I had too much conviction since my experiences and experiences of others in the occult.
I couldn't explain them away.I asked so many times on JOS(Which I know now to be a Datamining Jewish Controlled opposition organization)and they gave no staisfactorary answers for what happened to me,or the stories on that blog,which I linked there a few times.
So now I want a way out,but I don't know how to do it.
I have too much fear from those stories,and my own experiences.
So I wanted to basically ask,what are the 'demons'that attack christians and initiate rosicrucians,Umbainda etc does this prove the Charismatics and evangelicals right?
They always say that in their experiences These entites ask for blood sacrifice,and hate christianity but that their christian god and magic is more powerful than the powers of these entities.
They have stories of going to the christian version of hell etc
Alot fo these stories,the way they are written sounds fake and not how someone would write a piece of non-fiction.
But my own experience corroborates with theirs so I am reluctant to leave the Abrahamic paradigm,even though I usually leave every other week but then end up coming back due to fear.
I also know of Adam Green of knowmore news and Christopher Jon Bjerknes who expose the jewish program of christianity for what it is,but then people like fitzgerald patrick say they are israeli agents seeking to discredit chrsitianity and gives some weighty evidence.
I wish the trurh wasn't damn hard to find.
I prayed to Matsendranath a great Satanic Shaivite hindu yogi to guide me,the Tibetans claimed him as a foudner of Vajrayana and I thought it would be okay.
with his blessings I believe I found a host of refutations of buddhist epistemology and metaphysics from various hindu (Nyaya-mimaksaka,Vedantic and Shaivite)sources,ironically the go to brahma sutra commentary in hinduism refuting buddhism from Shankara who I later found out was a subversive,was the least convincing.
So I stayed in hinduism for 2 years,but on the way I would get dreams from some entities impersonating Kali,and my Ishta devata Lalitha Tripura Sundari.
the former would give me bad dreams,and even put me in the hospital when I got drunk and praised her,I blacked out and I didn't know what happened until I woke up in the emergency room.
the entity impersonating Lalithaa would give me dreams that Yehova(God of mischief,iniquity as I later would fidn out this word meant)was part of her and I shouldn't be so anti-Abrahamic.
Then one day in the evening,I was sleep and angels attacked me and Said I was worshipping 'satan',and I called out to Jesus to help me and submitted to him to make the dream stop-I thought I was gonna die.
I then found a Guru named Nithyananda and followed him for a while.
Then I became more mentally ill from his practices so I thought,'maybe the christians are right this stuff is evil'So I became a orthodox christian that night,and that very night I would have entities telling em to kill myself in my sleep,and I saw a entity in sleep paralysis and I called on Yehova to help me.
Attacks by entites would happen for the next year and a half,and I would of course only be helped when I called on Yehova and Jewsus.
This only increased my faith,that 'paganism'was evil and the christians were right.
Then I came upon a unfortunate website,which I won't name here that hosts a bunch of stories of Ex-satanists and Ex-voodoo,ex-Umbainda,ex-hindus,ex-muslims and Ex-rosicrucians and they had the exact same experiences as I did,and the entities they were worshipping trying to kill them and them coming to Yehovah(God of iniquity).
That website had stories of people goinjg to hell for the wrong haircut,or for liking a bikini clad woman's photo on facebook and I became really paranoid,fearful and scrupulous.So I wanted out,but I had too much conviction since my experiences and experiences of others in the occult.
I couldn't explain them away.I asked so many times on JOS(Which I know now to be a Datamining Jewish Controlled opposition organization)and they gave no staisfactorary answers for what happened to me,or the stories on that blog,which I linked there a few times.
So now I want a way out,but I don't know how to do it.
I have too much fear from those stories,and my own experiences.
So I wanted to basically ask,what are the 'demons'that attack christians and initiate rosicrucians,Umbainda etc does this prove the Charismatics and evangelicals right?
They always say that in their experiences These entites ask for blood sacrifice,and hate christianity but that their christian god and magic is more powerful than the powers of these entities.
They have stories of going to the christian version of hell etc
Alot fo these stories,the way they are written sounds fake and not how someone would write a piece of non-fiction.
But my own experience corroborates with theirs so I am reluctant to leave the Abrahamic paradigm,even though I usually leave every other week but then end up coming back due to fear.
I also know of Adam Green of knowmore news and Christopher Jon Bjerknes who expose the jewish program of christianity for what it is,but then people like fitzgerald patrick say they are israeli agents seeking to discredit chrsitianity and gives some weighty evidence.
I wish the trurh wasn't damn hard to find.