Tea
Posted: Fri Jun 21, 2024 10:07 pm
It's come to my attention that someone who, even though they walked out on all of us swearing never to return, in fact never went away. Even though he relinquished his control, can't stop trying to control. It would appear he has made it a personal vendetta to silence this forum and is working hard even now to do so via all kinds of attacks to infiltrate via the coding. He's trying to sift out my password. He was a control freak then and he's still determined to exert control. This is what happens when a snake you allowed to help wants to take control. This was maxines dilemma: allow someone to do the coding and get controlled. It was what happened to me also. I rebelled against it and decided to stop posting or having anything to do with the forum. I stopped posting for 6 months. He was calling me morning and night asking me to post. But I would not. So long as the trolls were allowed to run rampant, it wasn't going to happen.
The truth is he twisted my arm to only cover subjects he approved. In other words I was censored heavily. He created a 'political' thread. At the same time I was being pushed hard to produce. He wanted three videos a week, three articles a week, pages for his comic every week...formatting of images, etc. He was calling me morning and night, always with more chores. In short, he was driving me nuts till I finally told him you can't be calling me morning noon and night every damned day anymore. He didn't want me covering anything 'political'. Because he wanted this to be a ministry, another damned cult. I wasn't into it. I'M the one who walked away. And I meant it. So long as the place continued as a shithole, I would not return. He lasted 6 months alone and then walked. Which is when I returned.
I can't say in the end it was a bad thing he walked. In fact, it was a very good thing. At the time and despite everything I was honestly feeling let down and sad when he left (laughs).
Being the control freak he is, he can't stand – even though ostensibly, it was always my forum, mind you – how after he walked out I began moderation, cleared out the trolls, cleaned the place up.
Two days after he left he went into the host server platform and locked me out. Being the coder, of course he had the keys. He didn't let on; it was his ace in the sleeve while he lectured and harangued me to re-open the stupid anon account – and also tried to convince me why not just close the forum, come work for me? I said I don't appreciate you trying to twist my arm. He responded: 'better me than someone else'. That was a mistake. It showed me what he was. My intuition was screaming at me to go to the host platform and check in. Which is when I discovered (sure enough) the locks were changed.
However, being the owner, and I have always been the owner - I had an emergency PIN to get back in. I guess he forgot or figured I'd lost it. I got professional help and we changed the locks on HIM.
He returned to promote some church he was trying to start. It went nowhere. Later he returned yet again to promote another new forum, his toxic dumpsterfire. That one also, went nowhere. He has since tried to start another one up. And again, it goes nowhere. This is why he needed me. Why he came back to place ads on my site. My haters can say whatever they want to but it was myself who drew the crowd. I am the beating heart of this forum. And I have the good in my heart. I care for people.
He does not care.
He didn't approach me in private and ASK if he could place another ad. He just went ahead and did it. No respect. But of course; he never had any. Another slap in the face and stab in the back. As if trying to steal the platform wasn't a big enough one. Despite all the provocations, I let his ad stay up for a while before removing it and him. This was meant to be a gentle hint: GO AWAY.
He kept coming back...I kept removing him. He threatened me publicly on a thread. That I better not do anything 'rash' (removing him)....remember what happened to another site......I removed him anyway. Fuck it. He told you he had to leave this forum because I was wanting to be too controlling. That is pure projection. This guy is a psychopath.
This was when he tried to get me removed from google search. Yes indeed, the guy who is all about anti-censorship (ostensibly) tried to have me removed from google search. Tried to silence and censor the forum. Just as he had the JoS removed from google search. Yes, you read that correctly. I had nothing to do with it; I found out after the fact. If he'd asked me what I thought I would have said don't bother. I wouldn't have done it. I'm just not that vindictive. You see, when I'm done, I just....leave. And stay gone. I have a life. I think the best revenge is a life well lived. I don't waste time plotting how to take down people, or destroy what they have built. I don't care about that shit.
So.....while on the one hand he declares to be all about 'free speech'...on the other he works like a maniac to silence. To censor. As he is currently working, trying to break into my forum. He's been very busy lately doing all kinds of attacks. I won't detail it. But I'm aware. I'm astonished, really. Because I don't see the point. I have two computers, by the way. What you did doesn't affect me at all. You are wasting your time. You said you were out, never to return. Why on earth make such a business of worrying about what somebody else does? A pure waste of time and energy. And so, since he won't leave well enough alone, I figured I may as well spill a little tea. And, if it so happens he's able to break in and take over my account (he's trying)....since I really do own the place and pay for it all...I'll pull the plug. Meaning I'll take it offline until it can be fixed. Breaking in and taking over my moderator account won't do a thing. Because I own the forum. I pay for it all. You are wasting your time and energy.
I decided since he is incessantly attacking and won't let this go that I might as well say my piece. Why should I continue to be silent and shield him? If by chance he manages to break in like the thief he is and steal my account, he won't get to stick around and enjoy. I am, after all, the owner. I'll simply contact the host platform, have them remove it from online, pay a coder to fix the damage and put it back online. That's all.
And so...it will be a pyrrhic victory. Signifying nothing except wow: you would ruin things for EVERYBODY else just because you're butt hurt...though if anybody has the right to feel buthurt, I would say it's me. (shakes head). It's just....so stupid. The things you do to harm others will always return to you sevenfold. You only have so much time in the day. There are only so many hours in your life. Make them count for the good. Rather than waste it harassing somebody else, spend it trying to destroy. That's how I see it. It's a total waste of time and energy.
This is all about trying yet again, to force my hand and destroy something that was always mine. It isn't going to happen. He walked out of his own accord. At which point, he relinquished any and every control. It's not his business anymore. So go away. But, like a bad penny, he just keeps turning up.
I'm aware he slagged me again and again elsewhere. People talk. Even to me.
I heard I'm a 'crazy cat lady'. I rescued a small animal that was doomed otherwise, nobody else wanted him. He has found love and stability with me. He was so terrified of people when I got him, it broke my heart. He was so frightened! But now he has blossomed. He is a beautiful little soul. I don't think that was 'crazy' of me to do. I love animals. And if it's within my power to help, I'm going to do so. I'm a 'stupid bi**h'? No. Sorry, not true.
He told people we began this place merely to troll the JoS. Not true. Maybe for him, being the shallow mendacious character he is, that was how he saw it but not how I did. I wanted my own forum to get my voice back and also help others by creating a good space unlike the toxic stew we came from. I wanted something positive. Not realizing he didn't care about any of that; he just wanted money.
I remember well when he announced (he actually tried to do it to me live on air but I didn't pick up being busy doing a live-stream): I'm leaving the forum. I said but....what about the community? His response was:
“Ahhh.....fuck em!”
Yes. That's what he thinks of you all. 'Fuck em'.
And many of those good people contributed to help him! I do feel that the majority of the JoS membership are good people who want to make a positive difference in this world. They have been lied to and mislead. The world will say they are satanists and therefore they are scum! But I don't think so. Hence this platform. It's for them.
He and I are polar opposites. That is the truth.
I didn't realize how bad he really was till later. Sure, I saw lots of red flags....but I was still convinced he was my friend. I know....silly of me. But even I eventually saw through it. I didn't know how much he hates women for example. To him they're all 'bitches'. He considers himself a pimp.
I consider pimps parasites. Any man who has to suck money out of someone else – especially a woman - is not a real man in any way, but a craven parasite. This is the action of the enemy of humanity, they are also parasites. It's disgusting behaviour, dishonourable. The only use a woman has as far as he's concerned is to fuck them or fuck them over. It was the latter for me.
He got seven grand thanks to me – because I was trying to help him out – being a friend - while at the same time he was catfishing a dear friend of mine. He got close to ten thousand from her. The well meaning people of the JoS contributed 3.5 thousand, and another group not attached to them contributed the other 3.5 thousand. That money did not pass through my hands. I made sure of that. It went straight to his paypal. He 'helped' me create this place because he saw dollar signs. It wasn't altruistic in any way. I am not his 'dear friend'. He doesn't know the meaning of the word. To him it was always about getting those numbers up and monetizing. This is why cobra pushed his people to produce. It's why I was pushed to produce. It's all about the shekels to these snakes.
I, on the other hand, am about quality, not quantity. While it would be nice to get a few donations to help me pay for this place (it has always been me who pays for everything), I am not motivated by cash. I'm motivated out of wanting a nice forum. A nice place people can feel safe in, free to learn and converse. If you are genuine and want to come in and post, you are welcome. I won't remove you. I will welcome you. But the trolls will be removed.
He talks big how he champions free speech. But it's really about allowing anything in to try to raise the numbers. The more drama and hate agaianst me, the more people it would draw, the way a car accident draws bystanders. And to hell with how it hurt me. He didn't care. The only thing he cares about is himself.
So don't be fooled. Don't buy into his BS. He is an amoral snake. Just as cobra is.
The truth is he twisted my arm to only cover subjects he approved. In other words I was censored heavily. He created a 'political' thread. At the same time I was being pushed hard to produce. He wanted three videos a week, three articles a week, pages for his comic every week...formatting of images, etc. He was calling me morning and night, always with more chores. In short, he was driving me nuts till I finally told him you can't be calling me morning noon and night every damned day anymore. He didn't want me covering anything 'political'. Because he wanted this to be a ministry, another damned cult. I wasn't into it. I'M the one who walked away. And I meant it. So long as the place continued as a shithole, I would not return. He lasted 6 months alone and then walked. Which is when I returned.
I can't say in the end it was a bad thing he walked. In fact, it was a very good thing. At the time and despite everything I was honestly feeling let down and sad when he left (laughs).
Being the control freak he is, he can't stand – even though ostensibly, it was always my forum, mind you – how after he walked out I began moderation, cleared out the trolls, cleaned the place up.
Two days after he left he went into the host server platform and locked me out. Being the coder, of course he had the keys. He didn't let on; it was his ace in the sleeve while he lectured and harangued me to re-open the stupid anon account – and also tried to convince me why not just close the forum, come work for me? I said I don't appreciate you trying to twist my arm. He responded: 'better me than someone else'. That was a mistake. It showed me what he was. My intuition was screaming at me to go to the host platform and check in. Which is when I discovered (sure enough) the locks were changed.
However, being the owner, and I have always been the owner - I had an emergency PIN to get back in. I guess he forgot or figured I'd lost it. I got professional help and we changed the locks on HIM.
He returned to promote some church he was trying to start. It went nowhere. Later he returned yet again to promote another new forum, his toxic dumpsterfire. That one also, went nowhere. He has since tried to start another one up. And again, it goes nowhere. This is why he needed me. Why he came back to place ads on my site. My haters can say whatever they want to but it was myself who drew the crowd. I am the beating heart of this forum. And I have the good in my heart. I care for people.
He does not care.
He didn't approach me in private and ASK if he could place another ad. He just went ahead and did it. No respect. But of course; he never had any. Another slap in the face and stab in the back. As if trying to steal the platform wasn't a big enough one. Despite all the provocations, I let his ad stay up for a while before removing it and him. This was meant to be a gentle hint: GO AWAY.
He kept coming back...I kept removing him. He threatened me publicly on a thread. That I better not do anything 'rash' (removing him)....remember what happened to another site......I removed him anyway. Fuck it. He told you he had to leave this forum because I was wanting to be too controlling. That is pure projection. This guy is a psychopath.
This was when he tried to get me removed from google search. Yes indeed, the guy who is all about anti-censorship (ostensibly) tried to have me removed from google search. Tried to silence and censor the forum. Just as he had the JoS removed from google search. Yes, you read that correctly. I had nothing to do with it; I found out after the fact. If he'd asked me what I thought I would have said don't bother. I wouldn't have done it. I'm just not that vindictive. You see, when I'm done, I just....leave. And stay gone. I have a life. I think the best revenge is a life well lived. I don't waste time plotting how to take down people, or destroy what they have built. I don't care about that shit.
So.....while on the one hand he declares to be all about 'free speech'...on the other he works like a maniac to silence. To censor. As he is currently working, trying to break into my forum. He's been very busy lately doing all kinds of attacks. I won't detail it. But I'm aware. I'm astonished, really. Because I don't see the point. I have two computers, by the way. What you did doesn't affect me at all. You are wasting your time. You said you were out, never to return. Why on earth make such a business of worrying about what somebody else does? A pure waste of time and energy. And so, since he won't leave well enough alone, I figured I may as well spill a little tea. And, if it so happens he's able to break in and take over my account (he's trying)....since I really do own the place and pay for it all...I'll pull the plug. Meaning I'll take it offline until it can be fixed. Breaking in and taking over my moderator account won't do a thing. Because I own the forum. I pay for it all. You are wasting your time and energy.
I decided since he is incessantly attacking and won't let this go that I might as well say my piece. Why should I continue to be silent and shield him? If by chance he manages to break in like the thief he is and steal my account, he won't get to stick around and enjoy. I am, after all, the owner. I'll simply contact the host platform, have them remove it from online, pay a coder to fix the damage and put it back online. That's all.
And so...it will be a pyrrhic victory. Signifying nothing except wow: you would ruin things for EVERYBODY else just because you're butt hurt...though if anybody has the right to feel buthurt, I would say it's me. (shakes head). It's just....so stupid. The things you do to harm others will always return to you sevenfold. You only have so much time in the day. There are only so many hours in your life. Make them count for the good. Rather than waste it harassing somebody else, spend it trying to destroy. That's how I see it. It's a total waste of time and energy.
This is all about trying yet again, to force my hand and destroy something that was always mine. It isn't going to happen. He walked out of his own accord. At which point, he relinquished any and every control. It's not his business anymore. So go away. But, like a bad penny, he just keeps turning up.
I'm aware he slagged me again and again elsewhere. People talk. Even to me.
I heard I'm a 'crazy cat lady'. I rescued a small animal that was doomed otherwise, nobody else wanted him. He has found love and stability with me. He was so terrified of people when I got him, it broke my heart. He was so frightened! But now he has blossomed. He is a beautiful little soul. I don't think that was 'crazy' of me to do. I love animals. And if it's within my power to help, I'm going to do so. I'm a 'stupid bi**h'? No. Sorry, not true.
He told people we began this place merely to troll the JoS. Not true. Maybe for him, being the shallow mendacious character he is, that was how he saw it but not how I did. I wanted my own forum to get my voice back and also help others by creating a good space unlike the toxic stew we came from. I wanted something positive. Not realizing he didn't care about any of that; he just wanted money.
I remember well when he announced (he actually tried to do it to me live on air but I didn't pick up being busy doing a live-stream): I'm leaving the forum. I said but....what about the community? His response was:
“Ahhh.....fuck em!”
Yes. That's what he thinks of you all. 'Fuck em'.
And many of those good people contributed to help him! I do feel that the majority of the JoS membership are good people who want to make a positive difference in this world. They have been lied to and mislead. The world will say they are satanists and therefore they are scum! But I don't think so. Hence this platform. It's for them.
He and I are polar opposites. That is the truth.
I didn't realize how bad he really was till later. Sure, I saw lots of red flags....but I was still convinced he was my friend. I know....silly of me. But even I eventually saw through it. I didn't know how much he hates women for example. To him they're all 'bitches'. He considers himself a pimp.
I consider pimps parasites. Any man who has to suck money out of someone else – especially a woman - is not a real man in any way, but a craven parasite. This is the action of the enemy of humanity, they are also parasites. It's disgusting behaviour, dishonourable. The only use a woman has as far as he's concerned is to fuck them or fuck them over. It was the latter for me.
He got seven grand thanks to me – because I was trying to help him out – being a friend - while at the same time he was catfishing a dear friend of mine. He got close to ten thousand from her. The well meaning people of the JoS contributed 3.5 thousand, and another group not attached to them contributed the other 3.5 thousand. That money did not pass through my hands. I made sure of that. It went straight to his paypal. He 'helped' me create this place because he saw dollar signs. It wasn't altruistic in any way. I am not his 'dear friend'. He doesn't know the meaning of the word. To him it was always about getting those numbers up and monetizing. This is why cobra pushed his people to produce. It's why I was pushed to produce. It's all about the shekels to these snakes.
I, on the other hand, am about quality, not quantity. While it would be nice to get a few donations to help me pay for this place (it has always been me who pays for everything), I am not motivated by cash. I'm motivated out of wanting a nice forum. A nice place people can feel safe in, free to learn and converse. If you are genuine and want to come in and post, you are welcome. I won't remove you. I will welcome you. But the trolls will be removed.
He talks big how he champions free speech. But it's really about allowing anything in to try to raise the numbers. The more drama and hate agaianst me, the more people it would draw, the way a car accident draws bystanders. And to hell with how it hurt me. He didn't care. The only thing he cares about is himself.
So don't be fooled. Don't buy into his BS. He is an amoral snake. Just as cobra is.
